I no longer need you.


I thought it would be painful, letting you go.
I thought I would suffer, that my heart would be anguished with the loss of you. Or worse, maybe it would stop beating altogether.

Maybe without you, I would simply cease to exist.

I thought I would become adrift, for you had been the anchor I had formed my identity upon, the compass I had relied on for my direction. I thought without you I would become lost, disoriented.

I had expected to taste salty tears as they fell upon lips that once spoke so fondly of you; that my head would lay on my pillow damp with tears for as many nights as the moon continued to kiss the stars.

But one day, I just knew.

I hadn’t expected such a feeling of relief as I cut the ropes that once shackled me to you. One instant of tremendous clarity. One instant, where I finally knew.

I no longer needed you.

I no longer needed your opinion of me, your affirmation, your approval.

I no longer needed your judgments, your criticisms, your condemnations.

I no longer needed your expectations I could never meet; your hoops too high to jump through, your goal posts that shifted with every changing breeze.

I no longer needed your blame, your excuses, your justifications.

I no longer needed your pseudo love, fraught with conditions and attached with strings.

I thought I needed you. I didn’t.

I thought it would be hard to let you go. It wasn’t.

I thought I would miss you. I don’t.

For in one instant my heart was awakened to the truth of who I am.

I am more than the lies you made believe about myself. I am more than the look of failure in your eyes when I fell short of your demands. I am more than how worthless you made me feel. I am more than the ways you tried to break me.

I am a warrior, sculpted by the hands of creation, fashioned into being by the very hands that created the oceans and the stars and the mountains and air.

I am strong, I am brave, I am wise. I am gentle of spirit with the heart of a lioness.

I am creative, passionate, sensitive, and kind. I am of open heart and open mind. I am powerful, generous, thoughtful, daring, empathetic, raw, complex, courageous, understanding, forgiving.

I am everything you are not.

I will no longer carry the shame you made me suffer under the weight of.

That shame belongs to you.

And I will no longer carry my hate for you.

For that will only ever bind me to your darkness and give you permission to destroy my light. It will allow you to stay within me, to destroy my peace, to blacken my heart with the malice that lives within you.

It will tie me to your soul-destroying bitterness, your ugliness.

It will anchor me once more to you, who tried to drown me.

Instead, I will choose to go into the world and love more fiercely, show more compassion, be more generous, offer more kindness.

I will choose to forgive. For me, not for you.

I will choose to sow what I wish to see reaped for my children’s future.

I will choose to dis-empower hate.

I will choose freedom.

I will choose love.

I will stand firm upon the unshakeable truth of who I am.

And I will soar to heights you will only ever dream of.

For I have let you go.

No longer am I held down by all I allowed you to be in my life.

I no longer need you.

I am free.

Written by Kathy Parker

( with permission)

You Alone Are Good Enough

I don’t deal with change well. Actually, I would rather stay in the same place, with the same people for the rest of my life. Kind of in my own bubble. But life just doesn’t work that way. I don’t like to be pushed out of my comfort zone. It scares me to even fathom trying new things. But when I finally do, I find this new sense of identity and direction every time. It’s a feeling I can’t describe.

Before I lost my dad to cancer I had the perfect family, perfect childhood. We went on vacations, had big family dinners, parties and always spent the weekends doing things as a family. I guess you could say I was naive and oblivious to what was set to happen, which would change the course of my life, entirely.

I don’t think any 10 year old can ever understand what battling a terminal illness is like.

I was still playing with stuffed animals and barbies, holding onto my favorite red blanket any where I went.

I had that security that a lot of other kids didn’t have. My parents were happily married, had respectable jobs, we lived in a comfortable, modest townhouse and I had lots of toys and friends.

I was in paradise.

That brief point in my life is now, only remembered through the dust-stained photo albums.

Fast forward to four years later, in some ways I ache for the comfort and security I had before.

I never had to worry if we could afford to pay the bills, food on the table or a place to sleep. That luxury was given to me.

Until it wasn’t anymore.

My family struggled. Emotionally, physically, financially. But we did it together. That’s what kept me strong.

The day my dad died we stopped going out together on the weekends, we no longer ate family dinners and I couldn’t pick all the toys off the store shelf.

His funeral ate a big chunk of my mom’s savings. We were uncertain what was to come.

I had to mature and be resilient without a choice.

Since then I have always built walls around the people in my life in order to protect myself. It was my main coping mechanism when my dad I was receiving treatment and continued after he died.

I am naturally out-going and very social. But now I find having meaning relationships is something I’m yet to discover.

I’ve been so used to others walking in and out of my life. They all leave to find other people who suit them better or just get tired of me.

I struggle with anxiety. Every little thing is like a mountainous journey. I procrastinate and worry about everything. I have always been afraid of showing people who I really am.

Because it’s not easy grieving and feeling like your always alone.

So I shut myself out even when I don’t mean to. I can’t control when I’m about to break down or just snap.

I want so badly to feel control. To feel like I can cope and organize how I feel.

But right now it’s a catastrophe.

I can only find serendipity in music and dance. I am in another world. I am a different person when I’m on stage.

That’s what keeps me going.

I thrive on the memories of the relationship I had with my dad to keep me going.

So even when I lose and gain friends I know that there is that constant that I will have for the rest of my life.

And though I am fearful of where I go and what happens, I know that deep down the world is a beautiful place.

Despite tragedy, loss and change.

Because this is how I grow. Through every little victory. Because every day I look up to the sky and know that my dad and who I really am is out there floating among the clouds and I just have to try.

There is hope and possibility in every moment and every challenge you may face.

You are built to fail. But you are built to overcome.

No one can help you find your identity, only you can. Who you are is a multitude of misadventures, fails and plenty of heart break and loss.

As much I yearn for friends that I once had, that are now a distant memory and the life I used to have with the most important person in my life, I know that my life ahead of me is going to be better. Not because people tell me it is. Because I know that I have experienced alot more in fourteen years than some people experience in their lifetime and that’s what makes me who I am.

I have a lot to give to the world and that’s what I’m going to do.

Everyone has a story. Big or small. Everything matters.

You are beautiful. Who you are is so important to this world, I hope you never lose it.

Life is beautiful and never forget that you alone are good enough.

 

This Heart Warming Story about a Hungry Mom at McDonalds Will Restore Your Faith in Humanity

There is an inspiring trend emerging in coffee shops and cafes across the country, and it is restoring my faith in humanity.

Paying it forward is a new idea that has developed in cafes around the world, and its concept is very simple.

You simply pay for the next person’s food or drink so that they get a free meal or drink. In some cafes the concept of paying it forward has evolved into a scheme to help the homeless, offering free warm meals, drinks, and some offer schemes for jobs and skills. Schemes such as this have made a huge difference in helping the homeless get off the streets and develop skills, get jobs and homes, and ultimately help to lower the numbers of people living homelessly.

Social Bite Sandwich Shop in Edinburgh is a key example of one of these inspirational shops. 1 in 4 members of the staff were formally homeless, offering suspended coffees and sandwiches, which those less fortunate can come in and claim. In Philadelphia, Rosa’s Fresh Pizza has walls decorated in post-it notes symbolizing free pizza slices for those who cannot afford to buy one.

The concept was born in Italy with ‘suspended coffees’ and has grown into a worldwide phenomenon that just goes to show how kind and caring we humans can be.

It’s not just cafes and coffee shops, however, there are stories all over the Internet of men and women buying food for those who can’t afford it, showing kindness to people in their hour of need. One example of this is a Facebook status that went viral across the Internet.

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A man bought a McDonald’s meal for a woman, who could only afford to feed her son, and went to great lengths not to let her know who did it. What’s even more heartwarming about this story is the note he wrote her with the words:

“Keep your head up and keep pushing forward. You can. You will.”

It is these small acts of kindness that remind us of what is important in life and make us have faith in humanity. The men and women in our society that can’t afford the things we can need love too; they need kindness and motivation, just as we all do.

The pay it forward phenomenon has proven that we are all capable of great acts of kindness, even if they seem small. What’s small to you can be huge to someone else.

Here is the note. Read it and it will surely restore your faith in humanity too!

 

This Heart Warming Story about a Hungry Mom at McDonalds Will Restore Your Faith in Humanity

11 Very Short Stories About the True Power of Love

Sometimes, life produces the kinds of situations and events that no Hollywood scriptwriter could ever dream up. Comical, ambiguous, unpredictable, tragic — life is such a multifaceted thing. But whatever happens, there’s always space for love, kindness, happy occurrences, and simple wonder.We at  gathered together 11 very short stories, but yet powerful stories that will hit you right in the heart.

10 very short Stories About the True Power of Love

 

  • Today, two days after my partner’s funeral, I received a bouquet of flowers which he had ordered for me the week before. The note read, “Even if the cancer wins, I want you to know that you’re the girl of my dreams.”
  • Today I won a court case that lasted a very long time. 14 months ago, I found out that my neighbor regularly beat his dog. So I kidnapped it, and I was arrested. I spent a lot of money on the trial, but today, when I woke up and felt the warmth of my shaggy friend at my feet, I knew it had all been worth it.
  • My daughter came home from school and asked me where she could learn sign language. I asked her why she wanted to, and she replied that there was a new girl at her school who was deaf and only knew sign language, and she had no one to talk to.
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  • Today, I chose the wrong number and accidentally sent my dad a message saying “I love you,“ which was meant for my husband. A few minutes later I got a reply: ”I love you too. Dad.” It was so touching. We say things like that to each other so rarely.
  • In our school, just like in every other one, there’s a girl who’s more popular than anyone else. She’s unbelievably beautiful and intelligent, and all the boys would do anything to get her attention. But she spends all her time with just one boy: her little brother, who has autism.
  • My grandfather and I were looking through some photographs when we stumbled upon an old shot of him dancing at a party with my grandmother, who had died several years before. He put his arm around me and said, “Always remember that even if something doesn’t last forever, it doesn’t mean that it’s not worth your time.”
  • I worked as a consultant on how to raise children for 15 years. Later I ran into one of the kids I’d previously worked with. He’d been a difficult child, always getting upset and angry at life. One time, I drew him a picture of Superman and wrote a message about how superheroes never give up and always win in the end. That little boy is now a fireman, and he saves people’s lives. We chatted for about half an hour, and before parting he opened his wallet and showed me the picture of Superman that he’d kept all this time.
  • I have diabetes. Two years ago, my mom died and I adopted her cat, who’s called Kit. Recently, I woke up at 3 am when Kit sat on my legs and started meowing. I’d never heard him do this so loudly and persistently before. I got up to take a look at what the problem was and suddenly felt very weak. I grabbed my glucose meter to check my blood sugar level. It had fallen to 53, and the doctor had told me that the normal level was 70-120. Later, in the hospital, I was told that if Kit hadn’t woken me up, I wouldn’t have woken up ever again.
  • A large stray dog followed me from the subway almost to my apartment front door. I was getting nervous. Then suddenly a man appeared in front of me with a knife and told me to hand over my wallet. Before I had a chance to react, the dog had lunged at him. He dropped the knife and ran away. Now I’m safe at home, and it’s all thanks to that stray dog.
  • Recently, I dropped into a secondhand bookstore and bought a copy of the book that was stolen from me when I was a kid. I was so surprised when I opened it and found it was the very same stolen book. The first page had my name on it and my grandfather’s message that he had written when he gave it to me. He had written, “I really hope that many years later this book will once again fall into your hands, and you’ll read it again.”
  • Today, I found an old hand written note my mom wrote when she was a senior in high school. On it is a list of qualities she hoped she would someday find in a boyfriend. The list is basically an exact description of my dad, who she didn’t meet until she was 27.

Youngest Indian single dad to adopt child to tie the knot with Indore girl

Youngest Indian single dad to adopt child to tie the knot with Indore girl

 

Aditya Tiwari, the youngest single parent in the country to adopt a child with special abilities, is finally getting married on July 16. The 28-year-old software engineer is tying the knot with a girl from Indore and will have a unique marriage ceremony.

The marriage ceremony will be held in the city where more than 10,000 homeless people and children from orphanages, more than 1,000 stray and zoo animals will be given a feast.

The guests will receive books and medicines as gifts. Tiwari, who also hails from the city, plans to plant 100 saplings to mark the occasion.

Apart from his immediate family no one else has been invited for the marriage.

“People tend to spend lakhs of rupees on their marriage by hiring disk jockeys, on decorations and lavish menu but I do not want to do the same,” says Tiwari, who adopted one-and half-year-old Binni, who suffers from Down’s syndrome and had a hole in his heart as well. “As it is one of the happiest days of my life, I want to include people who never get any invitations like children from orphanage, homeless and poor people.”

A support group for Down syndrome will be launched by him on the day to create awareness about the disease.

For Tiwari it has been a long struggle to adopt the child as his adoption request was rejected as he was a bachelor and his age. Old norms did not allow single parents below 30 to adopt, but in October last year, the age limit was lowered to 25.

Completing legal formalities for adoption took more than a year and Tiwari received parental rights of the boy in January 2016. After adopting Binni, he decided to call him Avneesh.

“People discouraged me from adopting Avneesh has they said it will be difficult for me to cope with his medical needs. Some even went to extent of saying that no girl would ever marry me,” says Tiwari, who is now busy with the marriage preparations.

The last six months since adopting the boy, have been beautiful for him and his family, he says.

“I took my time in choosing a life partner as I wanted to be sure that even she holds the same love, which I have towards Avneesh. I am glad I found her and she dotes on Aveensh more than I do.”

How long does it take to create an overnight success? For John Hanke it’s taken him 20 years to create Pokémon Go.

How long does it take to create an overnight success? For John Hanke it’s taken him 20 years to create Pokémon Go.

 

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How long does it take to create an overnight success? For John Hanke it’s taken him 20 years to create Pokémon Go.

This week, the Pokémon Go app has broken all records, with 10 million+ downloads in the first week, exceeding Twitter in daily active users, and with higher average user time than Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram & WhatsApp.

How did John Hanke create such a massive overnight craze? Here’s the 10 times he levelled up in his lifetime to reach Pokémon Go:

1st Level up: In 1996, while still a student, John co-created the very first MMO (massively multiplayer online game) called ‘Meridian 59’. He sold the game to 3DO to move on to a bigger passion: mapping the world.

2nd Level up: In 2000, John launched ‘Keyhole’ to come up with a way to link maps with aerial photography, and create the first online, GPS-linked 3D aerial map of the world.

3rd Level up: In 2004, Google bought Keyhole and with John’s help, turned Keyhole into what is now ‘Google Earth’. That’s when John decided to focus at creating GPS-based games.

4th Level up: John ran the Google Geo team from 2004 to 2010, creating Google Maps and Google Street View. During this time, he collected the team that would later create Pokémon Go.

5th Level up: In 2010, John launched Niantic Labs as a start-up funded by Google to create a game layer on maps. John explains why he called it Niantic:

“The Niantic is the name of a whaling ship that came up during the gold rush and through a variety of circumstances got dragged on shore. This happened with other ships, too. Over the years, San Francisco was basically just built over these ships. You could stand on top of them now, and you wouldn’t know it. So it’s this idea that there’s stuff about the world that’s really cool but even though it’s on the Internet, it’s hard to know when you’re actually there.”

6th Level up: In 2012, John then created Niantic’s first geo-based MMO, “ingress”:

John explains: “In the case of Ingress the activity is layered on top of the real world and on your phone. The inspiration was that it was something that I always used to daydream about while I was commuting back and forth from home to Google.”

“I always thought you could make an awesome game using all the Geo data that we have. I watched phones become more and more powerful and I thought the time would come that you could do a really awesome real-world adventure-based game.”

7th Level up: In 2014, Google and the Pokémon Company teamed up for an April Fools’ Day joke, which allowed viewers to find Pokémon creatures on Google maps. It was a viral hit, and got John thinking the idea could be turned into a real game.

8th Level up: John decided to build Pokémon Go on the user-generated meeting points created by players of Ingress, and the most popular became the Pokéstops and gyms in Pokémon Go:

As John says, ”The Pokéstops are submitted by users, so obviously they’re based on places people go. We had essentially two and a half years of people going to all the places where they thought they should be able to play Ingress, so it’s some pretty remote places. There are portals in Antartica and the North Pole, and most points in between.”

9th Level up: John raised $25 million from Google, Nintendo, the Pokémon Company and other investors from Dec 2015 to Feb 2016 to grow a team of 40+ to launch Pokémon Go this year.

10th Level: John and his team launched Pokémon Go on July 6th in USA, Australia and New Zealand. Since its launch, Nintendo’s share price has risen $12 billion, and the app is already generating over $2 million daily in in-app purchases, making it an overnight phenomenon.

The overnight success of Pokémon Go has taken John Hanke 20 years to create. Throughout these 20 years, while he had a big vision of a game layer over the world, he didn’t know what form it would take. At every step, he just focused at his next level up.

At each new level, he had new powers, new team members, and new items in his inventory…

Are you, like John, treating your own entrepreneurial journey like one big MMO?

Keep the end in mind, but focus today on simply levelling up.

At every level, grow your powers, your team, and your luck.

And know it takes many levels to win the game.

“It takes 20 years to make an overnight success.” ~ Eddie Cantor

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